Who am I?

I have been thinking a lot about finding yourself this past week and what that really means. I came to the conclusion that you must know who you are to find yourself so I made a list and this is what I came up with.....

I am a daughter of an extremely loving Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother. I know they love me so much and although the allow the struggles in my life to happen they are their cheering me on and giving me the support I need.

I am a daughter of extremely loving earthly parents. My mom is truly an example of endurance and patience. While growing up my dad worked away from home many times and she wouldn't get to see him very often. She survived and is stronger for it and so will I! My father is a rock and an example of what I feel like a worthy preisthood holder is. Any time I needed a blessing or someone to talk to he has been there.

I am a wife. To me being a wife means that you give your husband the support that he needs to follow the dreams that he has but also giving him councel. I also feel like it means providing unconditional love to him. Sometimes he hurts my feelings unknowingly and I get angry, but I feel that it is in those times of anger or frustration that I am being given the opportunity to show that unconditional love. Just because I am hurt doesn't mean that I have the right to yell at him or speak unkind words to him, that will not help the situation it will only make things worse. Most of the time I don't speak at all until I can find the words to say that won't hurt him but will express the hurt I feel at the situation. 

I am a mother. It is still weird to me to think that I am a mom and have been for almost 2 years. Over 2 years ago we made the decision to start adding to our family. After finding out that I was pregnant Drew gave me a blessing. I don't remember much about that blessing but I do remember the feeling of love that spread over me as I thought about that little child that was coming into our family. Together and apart we prayed for that little one. Praying for things like good health and for it to be strong willed (that was Drew). But I knew that little one was special and had a special purpose on this earth. Even now as I think about him and his sweet spirit I am so amazed that Heavenly Father blessed my life by letting me be his mom. About 6 months after he was born Drew and I got the feeling that there was another little sprit waiting to come into our family and that it was time to try for a second baby. A month after trying we got pregnant. I was hesitant to tell people at first becaus they were so close together and I felt that many people would let me know their opinion on the subject but I knew and Drew knew that the Lord had told us that it was time for her to come to us so it made the comments easier to deal with. Drew gave me a blessing again when we found out I was pregnant again and again we prayed for her, this time I don't remember praying for her to be strong willed so hopefully she won't like the word NO as much as her brother. I new from a young age I was meant to be a mom, just ask my brothers and sister. Knowing this doesn't make it any easier though. 

                                        (My little family)

These are the core of me. Knowing these things is what keeps me going and helps me through the tough times. Now I have the core I need to keep building right?